Where the hell have you been?

Sorry for my recent disappearance. My Internet would not work on my laptop and I am no longer allowed to use my day job computer for personal reasons so I was kind of stuck. And it is really, really hard to blog from a blackberry. So for a while I have been MIA from the interwebs.

I can honestly say I've been writing. So that's a plus in the lack of ability to waste time online. I finished two books, one of which comes out today! Yes. Today. My newest novel, Blood of the Fallen is available for you to purchase at www.resplendencepublishing.com. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I've been told it's my best work to date. So go there right now, buy a copy, then come back and read about my addictions.

Now back to your regularly scheduled blog post.

Dictionary.com: Addiction –noun
the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

Addictions. I haz them. Oh LORD do I have them. Unfortunately I have a very addictive personality and can never seem to do anything in moderation. I'm a go big or stay home kind of girl. And that's why you all love me. Let's get this not so anonymous addict list going shall we?

Cigarettes - Not a secret to anyone. I wreak like bars used to when you could smoke in them. I love to smoke. No really, I do. I like the taste, the action, the way the nicotine makes every muscle in my body relax when I inhale it into my body. I am well aware of how horrible it is for me. I lost my Dad to lung cancer, so there is no pretending that smoking is not killing me. I know that it is. And I know I need to stop. But it's about the hardest thing I've ever tried to give up and quitting doesn't seem like something I'll be able to do soon.

Chocolate Lemon Donuts - Here is another case of loving something that is not very good for me. Though not as cancer causing as cigarettes, these gorgeous little lemon filled pastries have wreaked havoc on my body. I am squishy, covered in cellulite and sometimes my jeans don't want to button every day. I have managed to cut down somewhat, but this is another thing that I have to completely walk away from soon or I am going to look like a beached whale.

Caffeine - I almost forgot this one, but it is one of the few on this list that could actually live up to the definition of addiction. I get violently ill when I don't have it. Three hours after waking, if I have not had coffee or tea I have an excruciating headache and am a total bitch to everyone in shouting distance. I literally cannot function as a normal human being without caffeine.

Scratch Off Lottery Tickets - Here is an addiction that I have managed to massively cut down on. For a while I was up to spending almost $40 a day on them. It was a work thing, the other two women in my department and I would go to the liquor store and pick up a stack then sit at our desks and scratch the afternoons away. But once I sat down and added up the stack of losers in my desk drawer and found that they equalled over $1000 I knew I had a problem and have cut back to maybe $5 or $10 a week. (For the record, I NEVER won nearly what I lost.) This would be one of the more secret ones. Everyone knew I did them, but I don't know if anyone realized how big of a problem it really was at the time.

Harry/Draco FanFic - This might be my second favorite addiction after smoking. I LOVE Harry/Draco. I prefer novel length, but in a pinch will read shorter ones. I only ready R or NC-17 because I figure what is the point of writing slash if they aren't going to bump uglies. I have my favorites saved in a slash file on my external hard drive and will randomly go through and reread them, but I am always on the lookout for some rare gem I may have missed. I had hoped that with the new movie coming out on Friday there would be a resurgence of FanFic stories coming out, but apparently everyone has moved on to different subjects. I am not interested in other subjects. I only want Harry/Draco. And since there are literally over a million HP FanFic stories out there, I should be able to feed this addiction for a good long while. (Ok, this would not cause "severe trauma" if taken away, but I like it a lot and read more than I should so I'm including it in the list. Fuck you dictionary.com.)

The Internet - This one I've actually learned isn't that hard of a habit to break. I mean, I missed it a lot, but I didn't go into violent shaking fits. Didn't snap at my family or get an attitude because I couldn't Google Corey Haim movies for a few weeks. I was able to step back and see that the Internet is a useful tool, but it is not the necessity I would have once believed it to be.

So those are my addictions. I have bared my soul to you and shown you the things it thrives on. How about you? What are you addicted to? Are you addicted to Dakota Rebel books? Cause if so I should mention there is a new one out today. Oh, I already did. Well I'm telling you again. Go to www.resplendencepublishing.com and buy it if you didn't do it earlier. You'll love it. Hot guys and Armageddon? Come on! You know you want it.

XoXoXo
Dakota Rebel